May 16, 2021

An Annoucnment

OK, I'm going to be honest with you:

Once again, I am becoming increasingly interested in Simulation Theory.

Here's a true story:

In 2004 when I was at university I was sat on my bed in my study bedroom (stoned) when all of a sudden a thought that did not feel like one of my own popped into my mind:

"You are the man who discovered The Matrix"

In the midst of all the madness I didn't pay too much attention to this experience.

But I now think this was sign that it is my duty to propagate Simulation Theory. That I should dedicate my life to doing so.

I still believe in God, The Supreme Being. There is no doubt in my mind that He exists.

Do I still think I was Dropped By The Establishment?

I don't know. Maybe?

Am I still a Christian?

Of course. But in a more roundabout way than most:

But I still believe in Jesus Christ!

Question: was it Satan who whispered that message in my ear? To launch me on a campaign of Satanic misinformation? By appealing to my innate human vanity?

I think it's possible.

But I think there are compelling reasons to believe that Simulation Theory is true. If you look into it.

And frankly, I believe more in Simulation Theory than I do in Satan whispering into peoples' ears. To me it is a part of a more convincing world view.

For instance, have a look at this video for a good overview of Sim Theory:

So - the announcement it this: I have taken up Simulation Theory again.

I must now reconcile my belief in Simulation Theory with the beliefs I held before. Which I have grown attached to and which I still mostly believe in.

Did you know I have a second blog?

I made it in late 2020 when I last believed in Sim Theory. I then abandoned it for several months (when I stopped believing in it) but have since revised it, intending it "for entertainment purposes only" - an exercise in creative writing. But I now believe it again!

Here it is, this is my current understanding of Simulation Theory and maybe it will be modified by me trying to reconcile it with Christianity:

Go and read it - I've written about religion and God on there, you may be interested in it.

I will be blogging there but also on here.

Maybe this whole enterprise is Satanic?

But then maybe lots of things are!?!

I don't know.

If you are religious, please pray for me!

But I do honestly think that my life's purpose is to promote Simulation Theory. For me that is (Currently) a stronger belief than my belief in Satan sending me off on a mad and Satanic errand. So I'm going to act accordingly.

But I'm going to make a leap of faith.

And if I turn out to be wrong I can always repent!

May 15, 2021

Butterfly or Madaba?

Sometimes I called the thing that communicates me Madaba and at other times I've called it Butterfly.

I now use both names to describe different things:

Madaba is the being who communicates with me.

And Butterfly is the system through which he communicates with me.

Therefore: Madaba communicates with me using Butterfly.

That is my current understanding of the situation.

May 12, 2021

Let me get back to you on that...

Do I honestly believe I was "dropped by The Establishment", as I say I was in my book?

I don't know.

Let me get back to you on that...

I know from my analytics that this blog has an audience.

But I don't know if that audience is real people, or bots or crawlers.

And I don't know if it's friendly or hostile.

But just in case you are a real person who is actually following this blog then I'm sorry I haven't been updating it for a while.

And I think that in my last video I come off as really preachy!

I'm not really like that.

May 04, 2021

Why you (or anyone else) cannot be Jesus!

Have made a new video about how you or anyone else cannot possibly be Jesus!

This video is an especially intended for those who believe themselves to be the second coming.

I used to be such a person, I freely admit it. And there are many such people out there who claim to be Jesus.

Am not going to update my blog for a few days now.

If you like it, why not consider following it?

April 30, 2021

YouTube Channel

I now have a YouTube channel!

Click Here!

I currently have three videos I've made on it.

Here they are:

About my Book

On Abortion

Book Review

April 28, 2021

in public

Here is a story I tell in my book. But in greater detail:

When I lived in Coventry as a student in 2004 I once got high and went for a walk.

On that walk I noticed several dirty old men walking about masturbating under their coats. Not all together though - all at different times.

I went to the railway station to buy a bar of chocolate from the vending machine there. And there I saw it - a man obviously masturbating under his raincoat. He was just stood there, masturbating in the central hall of the station!

And nobody else seemed to notice!

I never saw a person masturbating in public before this.

And I haven't seen one since.

I think the drugs boosted my powers of perception.

April 27, 2021

a 210 page psychotic episode?

How on Earth should I describe my book?

I've started being active on Goodreads, so have had to do this.

I think some would call it a 210 page psychotic episode!

And yes, you could call it that...

I now describe it as part mental health memoir, part political memoir, and part spirituality memoir.

I think that covers it.

And I think that is a fair and honest description.

April 25, 2021

Now available as a paperback!

Now available as a paperback!

You can now buy your own physical copy, to hold in your hands!

Title: Dropped By The Establishment

Author: Ed Penny

Publisher: Chipmunkapublishing

ISBN-10: 1783825839

ISBN-13:  978-1783825837

April 24, 2021

The Age of Covid?

OK, so we're well into a pandemic.

We've come a long way from since it first begun but no end is yet in sight. So we cannot at this moment tell how far into it we are.

Some pessimists say things will never be the same again, because of the pandemic. That our way of life will be forever altered.

Personally, I don't think the pandemic will ever come to an end.

Indeed I think it will evolve in to new pandemics!

Time will tell.

But let's hope and pray that it does...

Whilst also getting vaccinated!

I think everyone who can get vaccinated should get vaccinated. I have. And I'm OK. Am yet to have my second jab though.

I foresee a bleak future in which there are at all times dozens of different strains of the virus in circulation and that new vaccines will always have to be being developed and deployed.

I think we are entering a new epoch: The Age of Covid

So no, I don't things will ever return to normal.

But it would be nice if they would.

Out Soon...

Update: I now know that my book will be out as a paperback in about a week's time! 

I will announce it on this blog, once this has happened!

In it I tell this story:

In 2004 I was dropped by The Establishment (having been a junior member) and following this Satan (who is in control of The Establishment) ordered a demonic being to haunt me. He did this to prevent me from ever becoming a threat to The Establishment: to neutralise me. So that people would write me off as insane.

I tell this story in my book "Dropped By The Establishment"

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It is currently available only as an e-book but in about one week's time it will be out as a paperback!

April 23, 2021

Forget About Doomsday...

Some day the world is going to end:

Maybe God will initiate End Times? (This is what I think)

But then maybe humankind will nuke itself out of existence?

Or maybe an enormous meteor will slam into the Earth and kill everything except cockroaches and ants?

Maybe the world will end tomorrow

Maybe it will end in 20,000 years time

We don't know

Regarding the return of Jesus, which Christian eschatology says will begin End Times, Matthew 24:36 says:

But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.

The original follows of Jesus expected him to return in their lifetimes so sold all their possessions, thinking they'd no longer need them.

The point is: we have no idea.

I think the most prudent thing to do is for we humans to commit to improving our Planet, to make it a much better place for future generations. As opposed to sitting about waiting for The End.

Indeed I think we humans should forget entirely about Doomsday. And focus instead on the future.

It is the duty of every generation to leave the world in a better condition than what they found it in. We should fulfil this duty rather than waiting about for the rapture, or the tribulation, or whatever.

That would be a more productive use of our limited time here on Earth!

Perhaps it would help if we made a game of it? I don't know.

been doing some thinking...

I have been doing some thinking on Capitalism vs. Socialism

Have now realised that I support neither

Have always disliked Capitalism whilst being more amenable to Socialism

But no, I'm neither a Capitalist nor a Socialist

I'm for Spirituality

If you want to put a label on me then that's cool

But just because I'm not a Capitalist doesn't make me a Socialist!

I was not aware of this when I wrote my book

And yes, I am aware that there are some rather dodgy ideologies that supposedly are between Capitalism and Socialism...

But I'm not talking about ideology

I'm talking about Spirituality

My Book!

Here is yet another post about my book...

To sum it up in one paragraph:

In this book I claim that I was dropped by The Establishment (having been a junior member) and that Satan then gave me a demonic being to haunt me, to prevent me from being a threat to The Establishment, to neutralise me.

For Amazon's UK Shop Click Here 

For Amazon's USA Shop Click Here

It is currently available only as an e-book but in a week or so it will be out as a paperback

If you chose to buy it now, as an e-book, then you can read it either on your browser through Amazon's website, on your desktop using Amazon's free app, or on your kindle device!

April 18, 2021

New Book Coming Out!

Good News: I have written a book and that book has been published!

It is currently available on Amazon as an e-book

It will soon be coming out as a paperback, too!

The book is called “Dropped By The Establishment". It is about how as a young man I was a part of The Establishment with great things ahead for me. But was then dropped by them after abusing drugs and having a dramatic and memorable mental breakdown. I believe that to shut me down they got Satan to assign me my own personal demon, so that I would be diagnosed as schizophrenic. And would therefore never be a threat to The Establishment, having been dropped by them!


You can purchace it on Amazon now.


You can read it either through your browser, on an actual Kindle device, or on your desktop using Amazon’s own e-book reading app which you can download for free from Amazon.

Here is where you can order it from:

Currently it is only available as an e-book but in about a week or so it will be available as a paperback too. Once it is out as a paperback I will make an announcement on this blog.

April 17, 2021

Nothing went wrong that could have

Have just watched the TV coverage of the royal funeral

So many things could have gone horribly wrong

But nothing did

At least that we know about...

and no, I wasn't wishing for anything to go wrong!

April 16, 2021

Nothing's happening?

Nothing's happening?

Find something that's happening!

Make something happen!

Nothing to report?

Find something to report!

Make something to report!

April 15, 2021

I vow


I vow to update this blog once out of every three days...

at the very least.

If the traffic to this blog increases or I get more subscribers then I shall increase this

On hand I want to keep it active

But on the other it's a waste of content if only five or six people ever read it, when in the future many many more may read it

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