What - or whom - is Madaba?
We know he is not God, or Godly…
And I know he is not straightforward schizophrenia
I think it is one out of three options.
I will explore each of these options more thoroughly at a later date…
I rank them from most likely to least likely:
An Accidental Tulpa
What is a tulpa? According to tulpa.io
A tulpa is an autonomous entity existing within the brain of a “host”. They are distinct from the host in that they possess their own personality, opinions, and actions, which are independent of the host’s, and are conscious entities in that they possess awareness of themselves and the world. A fully-formed tulpa is, or highly resembles to an indistinguishable point, an actual other sentient, sapient being co-inhabiting with the host consciousness.
People actually try to “develop” Tulpas and “cultivate” them. There are many guides on the internet as to how to do this. Why you’d want one is something I don’t understand!
People have them and have conversations and friendships with them. The practice of creating and maintaining a Tulpa is called Tulpamancy.
It is possible to accidentally develop a Tulpa. I believe I did this back in 2004. Apparently some writers have been known to accidentally develop them as a part of their character creation process.
I believe I did this with isolation, music, drugs, and what I now recognise as “automatic writing” which at the time I naively considered “brain storming”
This would mean I am lumped with the company of a parasitic consciousness that has moved in and put his feet up
The Product of Mind-Control
When I was on the psychiatric ward in Coventry back in 2004 a mysterious man brought some old VHS cassette tapes onto the ward and played them on the TV that was in the communal lounge.
One of the tapes said that the government has the technology to make people insane by beaming a certain type of radiation towards them, into their heads.
I believe this was done to me as I was an asset of the "secret state" that went wrong, so needed to be shut down and destroyed: by being made insane!
Perhaps before I became a liability?
This would mean that I'd had a future but was shut down by the "secret state" as I'd gone terribly wrong
In this scenario, Satan has had me under his influence since 2004
I don’t think Satan can speak for himself as he is confined to Hell
So I think he needs people to be his mouthpiece
I think that either:
- Satan may have selected me to be an anti-Christ in 2004
- Satan has selected me since birth or early childhood to be an anti-Christ
I think I could have made a very good anti-Christ if that’s the road I wanted to go down...
But I have decided to choose God.
If the Prince of Darkness chose me to be one of his anti-Christs then I'm flattered, but no thanks!
If this is the case then I have a direct line to Satan. But this is not entirely bad news because if Satan exists then so does God! So every cloud has a silver lining...