Wednesday, December 16, 2020

Three Possible Explanations...


What - or whom - is Madaba?

We know he is not God, or Godly…

And I know he is not straightforward schizophrenia 

I think it is one out of three options.

I will explore each of these options more thoroughly at a later date…

I rank them from most likely to least likely:

An Accidental Tulpa

What is a tulpa? According to

A tulpa is an autonomous entity existing within the brain of a “host”. They are distinct from the host in that they possess their own personality, opinions, and actions, which are independent of the host’s, and are conscious entities in that they possess awareness of themselves and the world. A fully-formed tulpa is, or highly resembles to an indistinguishable point, an actual other sentient, sapient being co-inhabiting with the host consciousness.

People actually try to “develop” Tulpas and “cultivate” them. There are many guides on the internet as to how to do this. Why you’d want one is something I don’t understand!

People have them and have conversations and friendships with them. The practice of creating and maintaining a Tulpa is called Tulpamancy.

It is possible to accidentally develop a Tulpa. I believe I did this back in 2004. Apparently some writers have been known to accidentally develop them as a part of their character creation process.

I believe I did this with isolation, music, drugs, and what I now recognise as “automatic writing” which at the time I naively considered “brain storming”

This would mean I am lumped with the company of a parasitic consciousness that has moved in and put his feet up

The Product of Mind-Control

When I was on the psychiatric ward in Coventry back in 2004 a mysterious man brought some old VHS cassette tapes onto the ward and played them on the TV that was in the communal lounge.

One of the tapes said that the government has the technology to make people insane by beaming a certain type of radiation towards them, into their heads.

I believe this was done to me as I was an asset of the "secret state" that went wrong, so needed to be shut down and destroyed: by being made insane!

Perhaps before I became a liability?

This would mean that I'd had a future but was shut down by the "secret state" as I'd gone terribly wrong


In this scenario, Satan has had me under his influence since 2004

I don’t think Satan can speak for himself as he is confined to Hell

So I think he needs people to be his mouthpiece

I think that either:

  • Satan may have selected me to be an anti-Christ in 2004
  • Satan has selected me since birth or early childhood to be an anti-Christ

I think I could have made a very good anti-Christ if that’s the road I wanted to go down...

But I have decided to choose God.

If the Prince of Darkness chose me to be one of his anti-Christs then I'm flattered, but no thanks!

If this is the case then I have a direct line to Satan. But this is not entirely bad news because if Satan exists then so does God! So every cloud has a silver lining...


  1. Hi Ed, firstly I love the way your analytical mind operates you are always so open minded considering many possibilities and eventualities you are certainly not naïve!
    I’ve never heard of Madaba before but after googling it I’m leaning more towards the Satan theory.

    I googled Madaba and found that it’s a city in Jordan in the middle east and it’s also an Aramaic phrase that means calm running water.
    Coincidence that this links directly to the bible? I think not.

    Satan influences this world greatly as he is defined in the bible as the Prince of this world when you see John 16:11 and unfortunately according to scripture he is most certainly not confined to hell (not now anyway)
    Please consider the following verses;

    Rev 12:7-9 – Then war broke out in heaven, Michael and his Angels fought against the dragon and the dragon and his Angels fought back. But he was not strong enough, and they lost their place in heaven. The great dragon was hurled down – that ancient serpent called the devil or Satan, who leads the whole world astray. He was hurled to the EARTH, and his angels with him.

    2 Co 11:13 -15 – For such people are false apostles, deceitful workers, masquerading as apostles of Christ. And no winder as Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light (he couldn’t do that from hell) It is not surprising then if his servants also masquerade as servants of righteousness. Their end will be what their actions deserve.

    So you see Ed Satan on this earth can most definitely speak for himself, he even has many others doing that work for him in the flesh and together they are deceiving the nations.
    As for your Madaba or this conscious entity in your mind do not fear my friend, I believe this is most definitely a product of Satan to limit you in this world.
    Consider again the following verses;

    Eph 6: 12 – For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms

    2Co 12:7 - ….. Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan to torment me.

    A you can see my friend even the greatest of us evangelical Christians namely Apostle Paul heard voices, he was not a schizophrenic, he knew these voices came from Satan and the forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

    Of course, if this great apostle told doctors this in the 21st century he’d be assigned to the dales and given Olanzapine.

    However, all is not lost, after the great tribulation or the rapture (it goes by many names) and after the Co-heirs of Christ reign for 1000 years he will most definitely be judged and confined to hell.
    As the bible prophesies;

    Rev 20 :7 – 10 – When the thousand years are over …. The devil who deceived them the devil who deceived them was thrown into the lake of burning sulphur…. They will be tormented day and night forever and ever.

    So my brother our victory has already been foretold, I don’t believe you have an accidental tulpa or that you are the product of mind – control.

    I believe Satan has tried to limit you from receiving your rich rewards waiting for you in the kingdom of heaven, a limitation you have smashed now your heart is close to God, hopefully never to leave again.

    God must love you so much as we cannot defeat these powers by our own strength and wisdom so take solace in the fact that you are a loved Child of God Elohim predestined before the creation of the world to walk Christ’s path of suffering and receive salvation.
    Love you brother, may the spirit of love and peace be with you always.

    1. Thank you for your kind reply

      it made my day!

      You have given me a sense of optimism