May 16, 2021

An Annoucnment

OK, I'm going to be honest with you:

Once again, I am becoming increasingly interested in Simulation Theory.

Here's a true story:

In 2004 when I was at university I was sat on my bed in my study bedroom (stoned) when all of a sudden a thought that did not feel like one of my own popped into my mind:

"You are the man who discovered The Matrix"

In the midst of all the madness I didn't pay too much attention to this experience.

But I now think this was sign that it is my duty to propagate Simulation Theory. That I should dedicate my life to doing so.

I still believe in God, The Supreme Being. There is no doubt in my mind that He exists.

Do I still think I was Dropped By The Establishment?

I don't know. Maybe?

Am I still a Christian?

Of course. But in a more roundabout way than most:

But I still believe in Jesus Christ!

Question: was it Satan who whispered that message in my ear? To launch me on a campaign of Satanic misinformation? By appealing to my innate human vanity?

I think it's possible.

But I think there are compelling reasons to believe that Simulation Theory is true. If you look into it.

And frankly, I believe more in Simulation Theory than I do in Satan whispering into peoples' ears. To me it is a part of a more convincing world view.

For instance, have a look at this video for a good overview of Sim Theory:

So - the announcement it this: I have taken up Simulation Theory again.

I must now reconcile my belief in Simulation Theory with the beliefs I held before. Which I have grown attached to and which I still mostly believe in.

Did you know I have a second blog?

I made it in late 2020 when I last believed in Sim Theory. I then abandoned it for several months (when I stopped believing in it) but have since revised it, intending it "for entertainment purposes only" - an exercise in creative writing. But I now believe it again!

Here it is, this is my current understanding of Simulation Theory and maybe it will be modified by me trying to reconcile it with Christianity:

Go and read it - I've written about religion and God on there, you may be interested in it.

I will be blogging there but also on here.

Maybe this whole enterprise is Satanic?

But then maybe lots of things are!?!

I don't know.

If you are religious, please pray for me!

But I do honestly think that my life's purpose is to promote Simulation Theory. For me that is (Currently) a stronger belief than my belief in Satan sending me off on a mad and Satanic errand. So I'm going to act accordingly.

But I'm going to make a leap of faith.

And if I turn out to be wrong I can always repent!

May 15, 2021

Butterfly or Madaba?

Sometimes I called the thing that communicates me Madaba and at other times I've called it Butterfly.

I now use both names to describe different things:

Madaba is the being who communicates with me.

And Butterfly is the system through which he communicates with me.

Therefore: Madaba communicates with me using Butterfly.

That is my current understanding of the situation.

May 12, 2021

Let me get back to you on that...

Do I honestly believe I was "dropped by The Establishment", as I say I was in my book?

I don't know.

Let me get back to you on that...

I know from my analytics that this blog has an audience.

But I don't know if that audience is real people, or bots or crawlers.

And I don't know if it's friendly or hostile.

But just in case you are a real person who is actually following this blog then I'm sorry I haven't been updating it for a while.

And I think that in my last video I come off as really preachy!

I'm not really like that.

May 04, 2021

Why you (or anyone else) cannot be Jesus!

Have made a new video about how you or anyone else cannot possibly be Jesus!

This video is an especially intended for those who believe themselves to be the second coming.

I used to be such a person, I freely admit it. And there are many such people out there who claim to be Jesus.

Am not going to update my blog for a few days now.

If you like it, why not consider following it?

April 30, 2021

YouTube Channel

I now have a YouTube channel!

Click Here!

I currently have three videos I've made on it.

Here they are:

About my Book

On Abortion

Book Review

April 28, 2021

in public

Here is a story I tell in my book. But in greater detail:

When I lived in Coventry as a student in 2004 I once got high and went for a walk.

On that walk I noticed several dirty old men walking about masturbating under their coats. Not all together though - all at different times.

I went to the railway station to buy a bar of chocolate from the vending machine there. And there I saw it - a man obviously masturbating under his raincoat. He was just stood there, masturbating in the central hall of the station!

And nobody else seemed to notice!

I never saw a person masturbating in public before this.

And I haven't seen one since.

I think the drugs boosted my powers of perception.

April 27, 2021

a 210 page psychotic episode?

How on Earth should I describe my book?

I've started being active on Goodreads, so have had to do this.

I think some would call it a 210 page psychotic episode!

And yes, you could call it that...

I now describe it as part mental health memoir, part political memoir, and part spirituality memoir.

I think that covers it.

And I think that is a fair and honest description.